本文為「老T搬家」系列論文的第四輯。在此系列首文〈老T搬家〉中， 我藉由「老T」（或「uncles」）報導人的醫療和租屋經驗，以分析台灣社會的社 會福利分配制度，如何緊密鑲嵌於既存的異性戀家戶邏輯之中，故而在拒斥中老 年女同志的文化公民身分之時，也間接地對他們造成了生存物質條件的相對性排 除效應。在〈老T搬家續探〉中，我藉由晚近十年這些報導人的往生送死的情感 表述和公開儀式的展演，以探討他們如何同時兼顧且衡量原生家庭和「圈內」友 誼關係對於自身的意義，並據此進行雙邊倫理實作。延續我對於另類酷兒倫理的 關懷，〈老T搬家三探〉比較分別在1960年代末期和1990年代初期「出道」的 兩代「T」報導人的生命經驗，以金錢和禮物授受與親密關係之建立的互動關係 為切入主題，試圖探究整體社會的政經結構變化，可以如何直接或間接地形塑此 二世代女同志對於廣義親密關係的衡量模式。本文延續〈老T搬家三探〉兩個世 代報導人的生命史研究，藉由出神與死亡的非凡感知體驗，以分析貌似現在完成 進行式的「老了」這個自我敘事關鍵詞的潛在可能性，並討論希望與照顧的酷兒 意義。

Th s art cle s the fourth nstallment of the “Mov ng House” ser es. The f rst p ece of the ser es exam ned how Ta wan’s soc al welfare dev ces, n part cular those regard ng hous ng and med cal care, d scr m nate mpl c tly aga nst older lesb an tomboys ow ng to the r deep entrenchment n the soc al log c of the heteronormat ve household. It was followed by the second nstallment that addresses ssues of negot at ng “ n-c rcle” fr endsh ps n the face of heterosexual b rth fam ly members. The th rd p ece of the ser es tracked queer eth cs pract ced by two generat ons of lesb an tomboys, w th a part cular focus on how to g ve and rece ve g fts n nt mate relat onsh ps. W th a cont nu ng nterest n explor ng not ons of nt mate eth cs, th s fourth p ece analyzes the extraord nary exper ence of mental engagement w th, and w tness ng the dy ng of, the loved one, as exper enced by the two generat ons of nformants. It exam nes also the potent al ty of the present perfect progress ve tense of “hav ng been old”—an express on lesb an tomboys have fa rly often ut l zed n nt mate d scuss on w th each other. It concludes w th a d scuss on of the poss b l ty of queer careg v ng w th hope.